Remembering

A hello to everyone after a long time. Yet again I am here to make an attempt to do something which keeps popping out its head every now and then, and that is writing and sharing what I think. My only solace during distressing times. I know some of you have read my earlier blogs, which unfortunately or you can say due to lack of motivation, I didn't continue. I don't know for how long I will be able to continue with this one, because you know everyone has their own demons, and I am also fighting with my own every single day. But, life teaches us a lot every single day and I am trying to take it and understand it as it comes. Can't promise that you'll get to see my blog posts frequently, but I'll try my best to write as and when I can. I am not an excellent writer/blogger, but I share what I feel deep within.

Past few days have been very distressing for most of us, and I am sure we know why? Almost every person who loves cinema, is deeply shocked and heart broken by Sushant Singh Rajput's untimely and sad demise. Have you wondered why is it hitting so hard? We were all equally sad when Irrfan Khan and Rishi Kapoor passed away, or for that matter when Sridevi left us 2 years ago, but this time we are completely broken from inside. Why is it hitting so hard? We were not related to him, he was not one of our extended family members, or friends, then why? May be because he came from a middle class background, with whom we all could relate very well! He had the dreams, and the perseverence to fulfill them. All of us have dreams. Dreams, which even I had, but could never fulfill them, because of lack of perseverance, motivation, passion, or simply because I did not have a favourable circumstances. Honestly, I don't know. He was an intelligent man, had a clear vision, was spiritually inclined, loved quantum physics, did some philanthropy work without any noise about it, then what led him to take such a drastic step? There are many such questions which remained unanswered, and we don't really know if we ever get to know the reality. My heart goes out to his father and family, for their irreparable loss.

The incident showed us a dark side of the society, particularly the so called B Town of our country. People are only giving advice of seeking help if one is going through a tough time or depression, but they failed to understand, that when someone is depressed, he/she doesn't want to talk or show their emotions to anyone for the fear of being judged. Do we really offer our hand to that person who might be in need? How many times do we check on someone who is not being in touch with us anymore, to find out if she/he is ok? We are all living in the bubble of this fake social media, where all we get to see is negativity, trolling, criticising. I know, me saying this might sound ironical too, since I am also using the online platform in expressing myself, but I am not saying that using blogs or other social media platforms to express yourself is wrong. What is wrong, is mentally torturing people by your harsh words, trolling them, judging them. We all can have and do have difference of opinion but can we not agree to disagree in a more subtle way? In last few days, all I've seen in various social media platforms with regards to Sushant's death is, dirty politics, mud slinging, various fake theories, fake news, speculations, and so on and forth. And then comes these so called media, vulture like journalists, nonsense PR agencies etc. If you are a simple person with a fragile mind and heart, then you CANNOT survive in this world. The so called people in media who claims to make or break your life, suck that life out of you like leeches, unless you are strong enough to pay no heed to their nonsensory or take them for a ride. In all these things, we just forgot that no amount of social media campaigns, cry for justice, or exposing each other can bring back the person who has lost his life. This non stop coverage of every detail on someone's life is making them more vulnerable to breakdowns, and somewhere we all are responsible for this, by watching the news/media coverages continuously. The need of the hour is to talk more about Mental Health and Depression, spread awareness amongst people, be it sufferers or their family and friends or the society as a whole, so that we don't see another Sushant. The only positive thing I am seeing in his passing away, is people opening up about their depression and mental health issues. We need to remember that every person is different, their circumstances are different, and so are the signs of depression in them. We cannot tag everyone with the same name. Not everyone who is depressed commits suicide. Some silently suffer for years and some times all their lives, some give up soon. The only way to STOP this is awareness and discussion. 

Suddenly, everything seemed to lost its meaning, for me. I am still not able to accept the fact that a person as young as 34, who had just started his career and started living his life, left us so abruptly, with so many questions unanswered. It was a jolt for me to realize the fake lives we are living, and then I decided to bring those changes in me and free myself from so many personal, professional,and societal barriers. My only appeal to people is to bring that much needed positivity in the society, bring the love and care we all are hungry for, and let us not be judgmental towards anyone, ever. Live the life, stay in touch with friends and family outside the social media bubble, stay together stay happy. Remember that our physical and mental health is what matters the most to keep sailing through the tough waters. Sushant will remain in our hearts forever, and we will miss him. I wish everyone who are going through the some or the other pain to come out of it hail and hearty, and I hope no one ever suffers silently. Take care everyone.